Hannibal or Bust

Okay, so we leave Saturday for World Changers in Hannibal. I honestly don't want to go. I'm so afraid our agency will get a new list of waiting children and I'll be stuck in Hannibal with no computer, no way to contact our international adoption specialist, no way to sign papers.
But God is telling me to Go! Stop simply surviving the China Adoption wait and LIVE my life. It has been such a strain, it wasn't supposed to be like this.
So, as the Group180 leader, I will go. I will forge ahead and uphold my promise to take them. I will smile and I will enjoy my week. I will not obsess about China. I will no obsess about China. I will not obsess about China. Oh, did I say that already?
I will trust my God and His timing. I know when I finally hold my daughter in my arms, the wait will make perfect sense. I know I will never forget the wait and the anquish it's caused, but when I finally meet my daughter, I will know that the unbearable wait is what brought me her. I will wait upon the Lord, my Lord, my God, my Saviour, my Hope, my Rest, my Sustainer, my EVERYTHING. I will wait. And I will go to Hannibal!
Eternally His... JMS