Busy Week~

Lets start off at the beginning of the week! On Monday the 21st, I called to speak with our agency about some things. They informed me that, as we spoke, they were uploading more WC to be reviewed. I quickly looked and requested the file for MA281 (SFY). Things unfolded so quickly! They called me while I was having lunch at the park and said we were the first to request the file and they just emailed it to me. I tossed my lunch onto the floorboard and rushed back to work! The diagnosis was a vision issue, so I quickly sent the info to all my optometrist friends! Jack and I discussed it and decided to proceed! That night, we wrote up our LOI, emailed all the neccesary paperwork and photos to our agency. Their Beijing staff was standing by to translate! We were thrilled! Tuesday we were on cloud nine! Then on Wednesday, someone emailed me and said they knew someone who had video of SFY if we were interested! Are you kidding? Heck yeah! So we go to church and we're teaching the youth a bible verse by erasing words and repeating it until they know it. That verse? And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28. So when we get home... I have an email from the lady with video's. Turns out, they were able to review SFY's file with their agency and noticed the only diagnosis listed was the vision. They wanted to make sure we knew about the other issues. WHAT??? SFY also has CP and DD. We watched the video as our hearts crushed. She struggled to walk and keep her balance. We knew that this was more than we were willing to take on. As selfish as it sounds, we want our daughter to run and laugh and play baseball.... This wasn't our dream. We quickly got in touch with our agency and withdrew our LOI. It was heart wrenching. But things happened so fast and I was so excited that I had prayed that if this wasn't God's will, He was going to have to stop it. He did! And we know that all things work together for good, for those who love God and are called according to His purpose! So this wasn't our daughter, but I believe that God has a daughter in mind for us, in His timing. And I know what He has planned is better than anything I can plan for myself. And so we wait....